Light Up For some reason, seeing that I have 20 pageviews from audience in Australia makes me happy... Another hectic day at work with Product Show... Last day tomorrow then.... EVEN MORE WORK with post-event shit, 2 launches, product training, survey project and ten million other projects I am handling. So much work... and so little competency... How to handle?? ``larcenciel Music: What Makes You Beautiful Mood: Tired
9:59 PM
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Would It Make You Feel Better To Watch Me While I Bleed? Skies are crying, I’m watching
Catching tear drops in my hands
Only silence as it’s ending
Like we never had a chance
Do you have to make me feel like
There’s nothing left of me
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I’m made of glass, like I’m made of paper
And go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper ``larcenciel Music: None Mood: Sad
2:32 AM
Sunday, November 11, 2012
The Skies Are Crying It's hard to imagine how everything can change in that split second of a blood test, or a scan, or some kind of medical result that feels more punishing to know than to remain ignorant. In that moment you won't think straight. In that moment you won't feel straight. And whatever emotions that stir within will manifest in rashness and irrationality and pessimism.... Especially if the person affected is someone close to you. For when the heart thinks, it lets everything fall apart. And me? What do I do when that person is close to me too? When the irrationality spills over and you let it sink in, the letters C-A-N-C-E-R are really just letters. Just a word. A word that would lead to something everyone faces sooner or later - only, perhaps with these letters in your life, they'll come sooner. But it isn't that bad. Not when you discover it early. Not when there is a fighting 80% chance of surviving it with treatment. No, when you've worked so hard all your life for your family and never had the chance to rest, perhaps this is just nature's way of telling you to rest, take a break, slow down. 3 months of treatment just means 3 months of good, quality rest for the body to recover... And it just means a jolt back to the loved ones around you to spend more time with you, to show you how much they care, and to be there for you - finally - after all these years. It is not a lifelong sentence. You can either let it take everything you have, or you can take everything back from it. Let it settle in... Let yourself settle in... And we'll walk through this together. Life isn't so hard with the both of us. ``larcenciel Music: Skyscraper - Boyce Avenue feat Megan Nicole Acoustic Cover Mood: Sad