Monday, May 28, 2012
Could You Make It Happen?
Now I understand what working friends mean when they say "Your weekends will be so precious", not because I need the time to rest or slack at home. But because they are about the only time when I can go out and do other meaningful things that can change society, help others, help myself and basically just go out and make a real difference.
Work is great - I make a difference too. But with that business priority there's always something less fulfilling. I want to continue volunteering with SPCA, educating others about vegetarianism, doing grassroots and political activities. I want to dedicate more time to yoga and meditation. I want to spend more time learning Japanese. I want to try to write and read more. I want to explore the crooks and crannies of Singapore, take photos and soak in different experiences and discover quaint lil' cafes and hideouts. I want to taste more vegetarian and organic fare. And I also want to spend more time with loved ones.
Some people ask me how I squeeze all this in my schedule... And all I want to say is, When you want something badly enough, you can make it happen.
Sometimes I want to make it happen so much.... but somehow it doesn't seem to work. Then, does that mean I don't want it badly enough? Or are some things just completely impossible?
``larcenciel
Music: Equinox
Mood: Pensive
12:08 AM
Saturday, May 19, 2012
The Con
When they asked me to write my "bio" for the book, what I really wanted to write was "For you. I am sorry." and you will know that in every single piece of narrative I penned, I wrote to apologize over and over again, to criminalize myself over and over again, to beg for forgiveness over and over again.
Nothing Is Always Something is about manipulative love and deceit - which destroys only as much as it builds, and the trail of brokenness that is unfairly burdened on the person who's only mistake was to love too much.
Mountbatten journey is about regret and neglect; for even in the most perfect and longest of relationships habits get the better of us and we go in search for the new, but we don't even realize - and when we do, it might be too late.
25 Characters stories might seem different at first, but they all have one thing in common - they don't have what they want.
Finally, Alternate Worlds (news story) is about how the things we say are not what they seem - and everything is always coded.
But you will never read it.
``larcenciel
Music: None
Mood: Sad
11:45 PM
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Can I Make Up Everything?
What is being stuck?
Stranded in the same place that you thought you would be better off without before. Sort of like stagnant, still, paused, cannot move on?
It's crazy... The way I can segregate my thoughts, mind, feelings, life... At night, I need to stop myself countless times, before I do things I would regret in the morning.
``larcenciel
Music: Can't Be Saved - Senses Fail
Mood: Missing
11:14 PM
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