Because I didnt bother thinking carefully and planning what modules I wanted to take this coming semester, I have to pay a hefty price - cramming 4 mods in 2days. And they're not cheat-able mods like Leadership and Team-building or Creative Thinking, but SOLID econs mods like Econometrics, Advanced Math Methods and Macroeconomics.
So here is my very screwed up timetable: Mon, 12pm FT. Tues, 830am Econometrics, 330pm Macro. Fri, 830am Ethics, 12pm Advanced Math.
At least the exam timetable isnt that horrible. Tues, Advanced Math. Wed, Econometrics. Thurs, Ethics. Fri Macro. I know it sounds bad, but for an SMU exam timetable it's okay. Our exams are confined to only a week.
Haiz. Consequence of not planning beforehand. Well, at least this sem I'll truly feel like an Economics student! Haa.
``larcenciel
Music: Simple and Clean - Utada Hikaru Mood: worried
12:46 AM
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
I'm Crashing, But I'm No Wave
Im just cruising along with my current life now, doing whatever I want to, getting stressed over the trivial things like events and CCAs and whatnot. Busying myself with school and juggling work. Wishing that time will just quickly fly by so that I can see my favourite person again then suddenly it hits me.
I am no closer to a goal than I was yesterday, last week, last month, last year, 10 years ago.
Goal? What goal? In all honesty, I dont know what I want to do with my life. Im just laying my tracks as I go along. Leaving the major decisions to tomorrow.
But tomorrow never comes. And I never do lay anything real down. Sigh... Im lost.
``larcenciel
Music: This Aint a Scene, It's an Arms Race - Fall Out Boy Mood: Blue
9:59 PM
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
I'll Bleed Just to Know I'm Alive
Things have been a hell of a ride since I got back from Melbourne. Leaving that kind of relaxed, worry-free life for this stressful, high-strung SMU student life is just insane. What was I thinking?? The past days have been painfully hard for me. Ive always been quite the stressball, with *THE EVENT* (not mentioned here lest it shows up in google) looming around the corner (4days to be exact) I really dont know what to think. Im so worried, unsettled etc. Does this project really mean so much to me? Why do I seem to take so much ownership in this? It hurts, somehow. I cant sleep at night without dreaming about something that might go wrong. I wake up every morning and tell myself, Okay I need to do this-this-this for *THE EVENT*.
Im just bad at handling stress. What's gonna happen to me in the future? Do I really avoid all other events from now on? Or do I throw myself in more? In hope that these experiences might eventually make me better prepared for work life. Or am I just making myself feel even worse, digging yet another pit of foolhardy stupidity - in an attempt to learn?
Can I really learn to be less stressed anyway?
Crap. Im a wreck. Im a TOTAL wreck =(( I want my girlfriend.
``larcenciel
Music: Beautiful World - Utada Hikaru Mood: stressed and sad
1:59 PM
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
Counting and Counting
Im back in Singapore now. The past month has been awesome, almost surreal. No, wait, VERY surreal. Too wonderful to be true. We got a taste of how living together would be like, and even though Im far from being the perfect erm, live-with-her-partner, I'll work on it. WE will work on it. That's the joy of being together.
I miss her sooo much... =( But I cant mull around. Trilympics is just around the corner, and Ive got my hands, brains and spirit full with matriculation, camp stuff, event prep and fund-raising. But the heart's always full with her =))