In the end, we are still naught but an abnormality, a deviant, something wayward and wrong to them.
``larcenciel
Music: Pictures of You - Last Goodnight Mood: emo
3:12 AM
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Puppet Ballerinas
I think dance is beautiful. It can get really emo, but we all know that some of the most beautiful and poetic things are emo. But to see it being controlled, tightened at the reins and captured, it's tragic.
It's like how we just wanna dance and dance and dance....but strings from above, that have nothing to do with us, that have no right over us, just control our every move. Our every feeling. Our every passion. Our every breath and life.
Just repeal the frigging 377A ok? and stop committing stupid fallacies of slippery slope already. Repealing 377A DOES NOT mean that we'll advocate paedophiles and animal-human unions too. That's too 'ambitious' for us anyway. Same-sex is already so trumatising and earth-shattering.
``larcenciel
Music: Lost In Love - Shinhwa Mood: lethargic
1:31 AM
Sunday, October 21, 2007
You Are My Cartoon Hero
This week has been SHAGGADELIC! (i dont know what that means either) It's sunday today, my first free day of the week. Im juggling some temp job now, school, project meetings, cca, bday party etc. It's been quite tiring but Im actually enjoying it. Although Ive been nodding off in class (and work, lol!) pretty frequently... at least there are enjoyable things like freetetris.org, starbucks party and BE!! I absolutely LOVE what I do in my ccas =D Just wait, in a while, you'll be begging me to do your whole sound setup for u. hehe so bhb... but seriously, I really love doing events and backstage =)
Yesterday was the first time I was controlling the mixer without an experienced senior with me. Super! Making people sound good is sucha satisfying thing, and especially more so when after the whole damn complicated setup, you step back and press the ON button and you hear people's voices, music being amplified, resonating. Simply amazing.
Ah but I should snap out of that whole happy happy blissful moment and start on my AS essay critiques NOW cos it's due in 24 hours... =X ARGH.
``larcenciel
Music: Zombie - The Cranberries Mood: sleepy
4:13 PM
Monday, October 15, 2007
She Doesnt Even Realise
I have come to yet another conclusion about my lazy-ass self. I DETEST DOING THE DISHES. Today my dad made the kids wash up after dinner, and I was totally cursing inwardly as I scrubbed the oily (since when was food so oily oh gosh) bowls and plates and whatnot. and how on earth does this washing thing work anyway!? When u scrub the dishes wont ur own hand be oily too? and when u continue washing the rest of the dishes wont the oil on ur hand be transferred to the clean parts of the dish cos ure holding and washing it?
Oh nevermind.
Sorry girlfriend, but u gotta do the dishes next time. Washing clothes, cleaning and tidying rooms, clearing dog's poop, I can handle. Just not oily dishes... oh, and cockroaches too. haha.
I miss you!
``larcenciel
Music: Happy Ending - Mika Mood: sissy
12:29 AM
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
In The Next Room
(belated) World Animal Day.... to whoever that gives a shit.
I cant say Happy, because animals today obviously arent happy. But I cant say sad cos it seems like I'm saying it's gonna be a sad day for them.
Well, it was a sad day for me anyway... bloody dogfighting. But luckily, there is always that special handful of people who make everything better. Thank you, animal lovers and empathetic people, for existing.
``larcenciel
Music: Better Than Me - Hinder Mood: stressed
3:21 AM
Saturday, October 06, 2007
I Feel It Hundred-Fold
I think Ive never cried so long, hard and much when watching anything before this. Not even brokeback caused such waterworks.
What hurts the most is watching those innocent lives being so brutally and unfairly stolen from them. They cant talk, they cant speak for fuck's sake. In what way is dog-fighting even close to professional or a sport? They liken it to people boxing. It's just NOT the same. Boxing is so gentle compared to dog-fighting. Dogs fight with their razor sharp teeth and claws and they literally rip their 'opponent's face, skin, muscles, tear their limbs, kill them like that. And it's not like the dogs chose to fight. If those boxers used weapons like blades, knives and one wins when the other dies, and also that these boxers have absolutely no say in what theyre doing, and live in totally cruel and hard conditions then MAYBE dog-fighting is similar to 'boxing'.
The fact is it's not. People who breed dogs for dog-fighting are so goddamned fucked up. What, do they have something against these dogs? Why cant they fight amongst themselves and kill each other off instead?
It hurts hurts hurts like hell...to know that these dogs are subjected to such mindless cruelty and unkindness. Why? So many lives are lost a day... Just because theyre animals, does it not matter? I'm such a wreck now....I cant do anything. I just keep crying periodically. Fuck... It's all so fucking sad. I wish I was a little less emotional. but when I think about how so many people out there are so emotionless when it comes to animal cruelty, I feel like I'm feeling the pain on their behalf...and it's even more painful than what it was supposed to be.
Two days ago I had a sudden epiphany when I was on the way home on 14. All thanks to some random half naked man (he was just wearing some boxer-like shorts) barefooted and jaywalking across the busy t-junction near suntec. It's like he didnt give a damn about the passing cars, the traffic lights, the scorching ground, weird looks he's gonna get when people see a topless man strutting around city hall like that. Yeah well, he was probably a construction worker...but STILL. It's city hall after all....
I dont know exactly what sort of revelation I had.... but I suddenly felt like I understood something. And when my senior mentioned to me that infamous NUS philo story about how a student handed in a one-line essay. The qn was What Is Courage? - "This is courage." was his answer, I knew for sure that wasnt courage at all. Courage had something to do with walking in the middle of town, barefooted, crossing the congested roads without the traffic lights' help (traffic lights are for wusses like me) And I only just realised how courageous foreign workers in Singapore are.
``larcenciel
Music: Love What You Feel - Britalics mix Mood: excited
3:55 PM
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
My Roses, Falling
It puzzles me sometimes, how judgemental and hot-headed I can be around people. Often these are felt inside, and somehow, on the outside, they get twisted along the way and they mask my true irritation. Like just now, my mom was being her petty and stubborn, harp-on-the-same-matter self as usual (whose mom isnt like that right?) and I got so annoyed I think I responded in a curt and (perhaps) rude manner.
What I found so incredibly annoying, my brother just brushed aside so simply.
It really makes me wonder, how is it that I can be so irritated by someone? Why am I so affected by the stupid things they say and do? Why do I continually allow myself to be affected? Why do I not possess the maturity and ability to just brush things aside and let others be?
Today, I realise how inadequate I am as a person. Perhaps, I'm not really as forgiving as I'd like myself to be... and that includes to myself.
``larcenciel
Music: What Hurts The Most - Rascal Flatts Mood: confused