Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Tell Them For Me, Would You?
For them, it's not such a big deal. It's just a few simple words from the heart. It's just, Please don't hurt them anymore. It's just, Love them, not hate them. It's just, Dont abuse animals, they are special too. It's just, I love animals. It's just a few simple words from the heart, from an unspoilt and optimistic heart.
When I read those little messages they wrote, it was like feeling a warm glow spreading slowly, melting away the edges, melting away the hardened bits of reality, melting away every other cynical thought inside me. It was so warm, so perfect it ached. Have you ever ached with such love and hope before?
LTB execution was an amazing success. It was really a project worth working for and seeing through. Teammates are awesome, the programme totally rocks. The kids were absolutely fantastic.
I wonder, can they reconcile all the ignorant beasts that shamefully claim the earth and beyond as theirs, with the beautiful but spoilt wonders of nature? If not, who will?
``larcenciel
Music: Dancing - Elisa
Mood: Anti-social
1:45 AM
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
When The Nose & Throat & Mind & Heart Is Stuffed
Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
You got much closer than I thought you did
Im in your reach
And it just shot down my spine,
That you look so beautiful tonight.
Reminds me of how you laid us down
And gently smiled
Before you destroyed my life.
-Rest in pieces
Ughh, Im sick. Sick and lovesick. I miss my girlfriend. Can you come back already, please?
``larcenciel
Music: Rest In Pieces - Saliva
Mood: lethargic
1:46 AM
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Mini Tornedos Between My Toes
I think the worst was going down the incredibly long escalator, turning back and waving and trying my best to take in everything about her and as it moves further down, I'll tiptoe and desperately try to see her like I could a few seconds ago. But as every nanosecond goes by I am another step further from her until soon, she completely disappears from my sight. That's when the choked up feelings threaten to pour again.
Even now as Im typing, she's going further and further away from me. And then, this little miracle called love reminds me that despite being so far apart, she's still close to me in heart.
Keep safe, love =)
``larcenciel
Music: Rewind - Craig David
Mood: hopeful
1:40 AM
Friday, February 15, 2008
We're Starting Cycle 2, Baby
A few days ago I went through my archives and realised at this time last year, I blogged about CNY then the next post was about how depressed I was cos the gf left. And dammit, it's the same this year!
She's flying back in less than 24 hours. Wow. It's kind of surreal sometimes. Her going away and coming back, me going there and coming back, we being apart for almost a year, being together again for 2 months. And now it's the start of a new cycle again. Somehow I'm excited about it; I'm excited over the prospect of seeing her again. But I'm devastated about it too; saying goodbye is always always so hard.
No matter how many times you've done it. No matter how many times you've tried simulating it on your own to be prepared. No matter how many times you think it's 'not gonna be so bad'. No matter how many times you stuff yourself with Prozac.
No matter what, this kinda heartache will never fade.
``larcenciel
Music: Call On Me - Eric Prydz Mix
Mood: Sad
12:15 AM
Friday, February 08, 2008
My Fortune Teller Says I Gotta Be More Patient
Chinese New Year! Oranges, bigger red packets but lesser $$ inside (4 fricking dollars??!) Red clothes, well-wishes, pineapple tarts and love letters. Visiting, relatives and etc. Lots of smiling, lots of talking, lots of pretending to enjoy every minute of their company when you're actually dying to just lock yourself in your room upstairs and sleep. Or dying to get work done but too lazy to do so and no time anyway because of the visiting. Or dying to worm your way out of the whole 'old people' reunion. Glue yourself infront of the computer screen and facebook or WoW away or Youtube away. Or just go out for a cheap and decent meal only to find nobody's open on CNY and the places that are open are always so crowded and the food isnt that wonderful anyway.
Ahh, isnt CNY just full of exciting possibilities?
``larcenciel
Music: none
Mood: sarcastic and sleepy
2:22 AM
Sunday, February 03, 2008
Overdue Sanity
Ive been flooding this blog with too much of my emo crap, it's time I did a proper update.
Well, since my last relatively sane post, Patron's Day is over! LTB proposal presentation was great! Im following up on the Animal Day sponsors. Olympic Dreams programme has had 2 meetings. Im handling an NGO account for BE PR, meeting them on tues to iron out publicity details. Comms speech postponed. Microecons midterm on Tues. BE marketing workshop postponed.
Yes. And today I woke up at a glorious time of 130pm. -sighs dreamily. Absolutely awesome =)) Im just glad I had more than 4 hours of sleep today.
I gotta mug for microecons! But im just slacking around because Ive been so frigging busy the past few weeks. Arghh...maybe I should go do my comms reading. At least I wont feel like Ive wasted the whole day.
I have craving for lobster, crayfish, crunchy prawns and sushi. Hmm...
``larcenciel
Music: A Vision of Students Today - DJ V
Mood: relaxed
4:20 PM
Saturday, February 02, 2008
Heavily Medicated For Your Safety
BPD has been setting in again the past 2 weeks. I feel terrible that the gf has to constantly put up with my emo shit. I just wanna say how thankful I am to have sucha loving and understanding girl in my life. Thank you so so much =) Im a hugeeee bother, I know. Thank you for not giving up on me. Thank you for tolerating my crap. And most of all, thank you, for not saying, Why do you do that to yourself? and instead say, put them on me too.
But silly...It takes horrible pain to be able to do that. And I dont want you to go through that.
Okay, I gotta go rest now. LTB proposal presentation later. Arghh, that means I gotta survive on 3 hours of sleep.
``larcenciel
Music: Incredible Mix - by Yours Truly
Mood: lethargic
4:01 AM
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