Saturday, October 28, 2006
Sugar Baby Love
Someone once asked me, If you could ask God a question, what would it be? And he seemed somewhat surprised when I said, Hey God. How've you been?
Maybe it's partly due to the fact that I dont think God has the answers to everything or perhaps I dont even believe in Him. But it's more because I dont really want to know them.
Funny how everyone seems to want to ask things like what is Life, what is their destiny? Why is this happening, when would that happen, what is this, that and basically answers to everything we like to call, philosophical.
Must we always be searching for an answer to all the uncertainty? Is Life really just a huge problem to be solved? That we must keep on questioning and questioning and if we are given the chance to meet our maker, we must immediately find out our purpose and all the Whys in Life?
And in case a smartass wonders, If you dont think we should keep asking questions, why was your previous paragraph full of questions? Well, they're rhetorical, mate. But since you're so desperate for an answer, that's because I think Life is a gift to be enjoyed.
So, how have you been today friend?
``larcenciel
Music: none
Mood: cheery
7:45 PM
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
The Bing on Your Cherry
When you get angry, you are supposed to breathe slowly for 3 counts, I had to do it for 3 DAYS because of a pathetic excuse of a human being who writes for a sorry excuse of a newspaper right here in a sad excuse of a society.
Felix Cheong. The mastermind, or lack-of-a-mind, behind a highly misinformed, typically asinine, ridiculously shallow so-called review on a particular movie that I hold in high regard for it's wit and satirism - Deathnote.
It amazes me how completely foolish and ignorant people can be. Even if he wanted to diss the bloody film he could have done it in a less immature and silly way. An extremist stance on an issue he doesnt know nuts about earns him nothing but disgust. It's NOT COOL to try so hard to be "different". Please, there IS a reason why the manga is a best-seller. For one, it appeals. An ability which Felix Cheong most definitely does not possess.
Well, today Life! (finally) published something useful: CATHAY LOWERS PRICES. That is the best piece of news I've heard since my birthday (because since then prices have only been rising....) Do frequent Cathay more! =))
Apparently the other cinemas are not going to lower their prices in response. But then, if the cineplexes in Singapore are oligopolistic, then with Cathay lowering their prices, wouldnt it mark the start of a price war? Perhaps they arent oligopolistic then. ughh, econs takes it's toll on me.
Pink it's my new obsession
Pink it's not even a question
Pink on the lips of your lover, cos
Pink is the love you discover
Pink it was love at first sight
Pink when I turn out the light
Pink it's like red but not quite
& I think everything is going to be alright.
-pink : Aerosmith
Absolute pink. This should be the theme song for pink.sg! =))
``larcenciel
Music: Pink - Aerosmith
Mood: Weird
4:29 PM
Friday, October 20, 2006
Catch My Disease
After watching Deathnote the movie, I just had to show off some of my pretty deathnote collection.
Apparently the movie was draggy but that's only because I've read the comic before. Judging from the kind of noises the audience made (like gasps and sighs and so on) I should think the movie was not draggy for them. Now let me correct a terribly misplaced myth about the motion picture, Yue is CUTE stuff. The poster does not compliment him at all. Do not be deceived. L is, on the other hand, slightly less appealing in motion than on still images. But when they're together they are hot. It makes me wish they were yaoi or something.
There were some changes made; certain scenes added and Yue likes a girl?? At first I didnt like it, because the main appeal of Yue was his coldness, his aloofness and his ability to free himself from emotional attachment to anyone. But then what he did in the end to that girl just made him even more evil and icy. It's all cool. I'm glad. 8bucks well spent =))
So anyway I decided that since I've added 2photos I might as well add another in an attempt to be like mmflightpfftuii.
These are the farewell notes/presents I got from TJ peeps. From 12/05, my 4 buddies, Nur, Xinyi, GP tutor and the school. Aww.... Thanks y'all *hug*
Hmm, for some reason I feel like the picts dont add any value to whatever I am saying... Yes, I know that a picture speaks a thousand words, but a word paints a thousand pictures too, doesnt it?
She drank beer with coca-cola
That's the way I like it
So please, baby please
Open your heart and
Catch my disease
``larcenciel
Music: Catch My Disease - Ben Lee
Mood: chirpy
5:54 PM
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Yours Truly
My amazing group of mates from 12/05. Love y'all to bits.
Probably the best friend from TJ
-courtesy of siying, devilic-memories.blogspot.com
``larcenciel
Music: Kohaku - Shimokawa Mikuni
Mood: ok
5:08 PM
Like A Child Letting Go of His Kite
Yesterday was the last day of school. Apparently I have since graduated from Temasek Junior College. Not going to get all sappy and emo now because the only tugs I feel arent that of leaving College but of another more excruciating nature.
It's like trying to breathe in a an overcrowded, claustrophobic space, you know?? You do. You know. You always know, dont you?
"As humans, we can merely sense the existence of a higher truth, a greater coherence than ourselves, but we cannot see it face to face. That is either funny or sad, and humans stagger from one option to the other. Neither beasts nor angels, we live in twilight, and we are unsure whether it is a prelude to morning or a prelude to night."
-Andrew Sullivan, The Conservative Soul
And with such wise, provoking words, I shall be off to continue my Economics to 5am.
``larcenciel
Music: Can't Cry Hard Enough - Bellefire
Mood: numb
2:17 AM
Friday, October 13, 2006
Let's Talk About Love
It isnt oft that we seriously ponder over this delectable, mysterious 4 letter word, whose meaning is still unfounded. As part of my GP research for an essay question, I came across speculations on what Love really is that may make you go Aww in that honeyed way, or not, depending on how cynical you are.
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"If Love was a choice, who would choose such exquisite pain?"
"When love beckons to you follow him, though his ways are hard and steep. And when his wings enfold you, yield to him, though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you. And when he speaks to you believe in him, though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden. For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you."
"Love is like jumping; It's like leaping; It's like walking on the ceiling; It's like floatin'; It's like flying through the air. It's like soarin'; It's like glidin'; It's a rocket ship you're riding; It's a feeling that can take you anywhere. So why they call it falling, I don't know."
"If I knew what love is, I would be wrong because you give it a whole new meaning."
"Love is when there are a million things you want to say to someone, but when they look you in the eyes and hold you in their arms nothing else matters other than being with that person at that moment."
And I thought this was cute,
Love is the way I stare at you for no reason.
So if you catch someone staring at you, dont be self-conscious, just think it's Love! =P
``larcenciel
Music: Sink to the Bottom - Fountains of Wayne
Mood: Lovin'
8:22 PM
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Not Just Idle
As always we must never take mature and proper discussions and feedback too personally.
So today during lesson, we were going through an essay question on "Blogging is nothing more than idle chatter and self indulgence. Is this a fair comment?" Someone brought up the blog of the very famous gay duo, Colin and Kero and said it was a good example of "idle chatter and self indulgence" with little value.
I'm not a big fan of Colin and Kero. It was not so much that what my classmate said that triggered me, but the fact that everyone else (with the exception of hL) and the tutor thought it was ok. No, the tutor said it was a small, insignificant example.
It most definitely is not. As much as I dislike the fanciful, dandy content of C&K it is their ideology, their philosophy and their beliefs that I respect and want to protect. It is grossly unfair and, I daresay, simplistic to overlook the deep implications C&K have on the Singaporean youth gay scene. The implications blahblah I dont have to elaborate, it's basically the usual stuff. How knitted our community is, how we long for acceptance and understanding that any small thing (even if it's part of an "idle chatter" blog) counts. It's just important to us to have our identity and belonging back. Back where it rightfully belongs. Back where it has been so cruelly stolen from our very own hands that have been tied up by society's crazy expectations and stereotypical bullshit.
Yes, I'm sure we all know that. I'm sure they knew that. It's just too insignificant a point to be made, too small a thought to be pondered over, too minor an opinion to be considered. Too lame, too lame.
I went to collect my free (yes, Leandra gets free things like there's no tmr) mp4 player from EmitAsia at Raffles Place. Offices impress me with their bright lights, claustrophobic cubicles, freezing air-con and smart attitudes. I felt so small when I was standing at the counter, waiting for my mp4. I feel like going out to work now. Going to work in the corporate world. I know, it's crazy for me to actually anticipate joining the rar race and cruel, dog-eat-dog world etc etc but what's risky is also what's attractive.
So imagine me, all smartly dressed, prim and proper, in meetings or chairing meetings (heh) Damn it'll be cool.
``larcenciel
Music: Bad Day - Daniel Powter
Mood: off
6:33 PM
Monday, October 09, 2006
Leandra's Happy Day
No1, the parents have returned! Although it means less freedom, it also means more pampering which includes my all-time favourite "daddy sends me to school at 715am" My waking hours now resume from 7am onwards, instead of the unearthly 625am.
No2, school verged on a tad useful today... Hah. surprising, aint it? I applaud myself for being able to stop myself from chatting/eating my free periods away. I also skipped GP lecture, which was apparently of zero worth unless you possessed some perverted habit of laughing at other people's mistakes or if you were secretly in love with the school's discipline master.
No3, I had chicken rice for lunch! Dont ask me why it made me so delighted. The company, perhaps?
No4, I lasted 4 solid hours of Maths tuition. Did mostly paper2 questions from HCI and ACJC. I'm satisfied with the afternoon efforts. And I like making my parent's money's worth - staying as long as possible for tuition. lol. I know, I'm a cheapo.
No5, the trip home was shorter than usual. By some miracle or another, 14 came rumbling by as soon as I got down 24 at the MRT station. Good, good.
No6, a pretty lady offered to let me get on the bus first! Now, this REALLY, REALLY made my day. It's just so pleasant to be treated civilly by fellow human beings (for once, perahps?) This is what everyone else should do. Be considerate, be nice, be polite. At least there's some hope left for us with people like that lovely lady around.
No7, there was satay for dinner. I've a terrible weakness for satay. Big time.
No8, scoop =))
So my parents got me a precious stone pendant all the way from China-land. It is, somehow, supposed to turn my BEDC6 into AAAA1 in a month's time. Even though it's highly suspicious, I'm wearing it anyway (it's 80bucks!) I dont know how it will ever happen, unless it really has some form of super-divine power.
I cant cant cant, absolutely CANNOT believe I missed this!! =(( Why didnt someone tell me about it??
``larcenciel
Music: Cruisin' - Duets OST
Mood: chirpy
8:29 PM
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Dancing Teddies
I went for a haircut (finally, you exclaim) yesterday. I'm surprised that the hairdresser didnt scream when she saw my hair. Now the ponytail is considerably thinner and my head feels relatively lighter, which is a good thing, really.
Got that brilliant book, SQ21 at MPH. 20% discount was a bonus. So I didnt do much work yesterday which is quite terrible, and I gotta make it up for today but I'm not progressing much. I hate Sundays, Mondays and Tuesdays. They are my non-motivated days.
"Without plans, you just live day by day, not knowing where to put down the roots and blossom. There's no stability just being two partners forever and ever. One day maybe you'll realize your relationship doesnt have a future, and you've been lying stagnant for the past forty years. Now, when you make a commitment like a marriage, it's like you're planting a tree. You make an agreement to trust and support each other, and year after year, you know where the apples will fall." -SQ21, pg12
So please dont accuse GLBTs of relationships that dont last. It's because it is so-called wrong and illegal that their relationships become less of a smooth sail.
Ah. But that's where the dynamism and sheer exhilaration of true love sets in, doesnt it? Amidst the treacherous storms, the hardships of what is so forbidden yet sweet and despite the shit, overcoming all odds.
``larcenciel
Music: Perhaps Love - Goong OST
Mood: satisfied
5:07 PM
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
All My Breath
My horoscope for today advises me to relax for once, because not being bogged down by worldy burdens is an art - of which practice makes perfect.
I should go for a run, and get lost again...
Went to parkway for lunch with Darryl. MPH was too much for me to resist. I found a new book I've made up my mind to buy. ( SQ21 - Singapore Queers in the 21st Century ) The bus ride home was terribly rocky. I still feel mildly nauseous now.
...and again, and again, and again.
``larcenciel
Music: I Melt with You - Jason Mraz
Mood: giddy
4:55 PM
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Sated
Only in the food sense, of course.
I have just returned from a lovely meal of chilli crab, sweet and sour pork, yummy Kang Kong and fried curry chicken wings. And after that, I had ice-cream cake. Wheee. Pig.
All I'm missing to make this a replica of one of those blogs are pictures of the food.
I'm listening to pinkcast episode3 as I'm typing this. I must say that Seth and his sidekick (Leif, or something?) are incredibly hilarious. I dont know why exactly they crack me up, but there are some witty gems like PLU (people like us) and other strange acronyms that just seem so lame.
I love pink.sg =)
``larcenciel
Music: Geek in the Pink - Jason Mraz
Mood: full
8:21 PM
Nondescript
Yesterday I went for the sat cityharvest service at Expo. I've nothing to say. It's all the same, fundamentally. I'm de-sensitized. I hear and I see their religion, but I am no longer haunted. I am not irritated. I am not confused. I am not hurt.
For some reason, I just don't care.
Well, if I really have to say something, it would be that their sound system really rocks. And their singers too. They look good and they sing good. Hmmm.
I recall a few lines from their praise and worship (pop) songs:
Take all of me for all of you.
When I close my eyes, all I see is you.
I guess that service did help me in some way. It helped strengthened my faith, my bond with my own religion. With my own God deep in my heart. And she's beautiful. So beautiful it hurts. It hurts to look. It hurts to recall. It hurts to touch.
So I won't. But I wont stop believing and I wont stop loving.
And I read this somewhere sometime ago,
I dont know where to place you amongst the myriad of confusion in my heart.
``larcenciel
Music: Justice and Freedon - GS OST
Mood: torn
2:23 AM
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