It's sort of a mixed feeling, I guess. On one hand I'm crazily excited about starting this whole sales job with EmitAsia and the challenges that await yet on the other it's really sad that I'm going to be sucked into this shithole of a rat race society and emerge, 30 years later, old, sad and cynical and this teenage innocence will become real world hatred and crap instead.
So from today till the day I officially become a salesperson with EmitAsia, I have decided to pen everything I want the world to be, everything I want to be, and every other damned idealistic thing that will keep me alive and completely Leandra in the days, months and years to come. I dont want to lose myself in the future. I am going to remind myself, constantly, that I wont ever give myself up to this shithole of a society that we've built, and I'm going to work hard at anything I do, I'm going to love what I wanna love. I will never compromise on integrity and respect. This world wont be a worse place. I will not watch others crumble, I will not smash what other people have painstakingly built just to earn that extra buck. I will not sacrifice a friendship, my family nor love or hope for tangibles. In other words, I'm not going to fuck myself up.
Today was first day of training. It was pretty good. Sales isnt so scary after all. It's really all about presenting a duck as a swan, aka manipulation, you know, stuff like that.
After the training, wanjie came to fetch me..or rather, I had to brave the wretched storm to walk all the way to the damned MRT station to meet her. My shoes and jeans were totally soaked =X Headed to Bugis for dinner and because I wanted to get my $25 jeans.
So today was just like this. Raining, pouring all the way. Raining love, love, love =))
``larcenciel
Music: Hate Me - Blue October Mood: full
11:01 PM
Monday, December 25, 2006
Christmas Confidential
So I'm back from Genting. It was a funny holiday... Rained like crazy on the first 2 days so we couldnt enjoy the outdoor theme park. A bummer. We made do with lame indoor rides (like Ferris Wheel and bumper car and a terribly lame rollar coaster etc), arcade games, 1RM per song Kbox, tons of shopping and pigging out. On the day we had to leave the weather was a bitch and decided to clear up. WHAT LUCK.
Some pictures! =)) gotta love my siblings. We were absolute cam-whores (friendster style) haha!
Spent almost the WHOLE day with bastard friends yesterday. from 330pm to 330am. we watched deathnote 2 at vivo. I didnt like it though. I cant believe my beloved Yue died BEFORE that damned L. How insulting to Yue! wanjie gave me a present! the same adidas watch she has =)) It's brilliant. I love it. Even though I dont wear watches... haha. Thanks, love.
She met my bastard friends... It's funny because they usually arent the type who embrace, you know, PLU but they're so sweet they said, Only because it's you Leandra. You're our friend, so we support you, completely.
Awww... They're always so bastard-y, yet I can always count on them when it really matters.
And Joel got me a Tinkerbell (the fairy from Peter Pan) chain for the xmas exchange. It's cute.
I'm sick anyways. How wonderful isnt it? Sick on christmas day. Gotta spend the whole day sleeping then. My dad got a HUGEEE Godiva hamper. It's just gorgeous. I'm so lucky to have a dad who constantly receives such ridiculously highly priced merchandise. Haha.
Merry Christmas!
``larcenciel
Music: Ultraviolet - Mcfly Mood: crazy
9:59 PM
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
My First Surprise Party
I'm not kidding you. Yesterday was the first, first absolute FIRST time I had a surprise birthday party. It was those kinda gf-will-trick-you-into-staying-upstairs-for-the-whole-day-until-evening-and-balloons-and-colourful-banners-decor-plus-good-friends-waiting-downstairs-in-a-row kinda surprise party. In other words, the type you watch in movies.
And it really came as a surprise to me, considering the fact that I stomped downstairs eagerly IN MY BOXER-LOOK-ALIKE (not real boxers) SHORTS to grab something to eat after a little erm, disagreement with wanjie and lo and behold, my friends were there. It was really wonderful, despite me being in such a disgusting state.
The awesome people who were there included Drama peeps like Pearlyn, Jacq, Sam and Maka, from 4e2, Ah Soh, Li Huan, Xinyi, Emma. Plus other tk buddies like Monica, Natalie and Wanjie, of course. I dont know what to say except thanks. Thanks so much for this little gathering because it's incredible to see my old mates come specially to celebrate my birthday. For a while, I forgot what it was like to have a birthday party.
This is one birthday I'll never, ever forget. Even though it's 3days early... Haha. And the presents! Wanted to upload some picts of the generosity of my lovely friends but decided against it. Some are too INDECENT to be shown.
Gosh, my thoughts are so incoherent. I've so much to say... because I am this thrilled. In essence, I had tons of fun. And before I forget, I must thank my mom! For SCHEMING together with Nat and co and funding for the terribly expensive cake and pizza. I love y'all.
Now I gotta do some last minute packing. Leaving for Genting at 6am later. I guess I am kinda excited... I mean, the last time I went for a vacation with more than 1 member of the family was 4 years ago. Alright, I shall be off!
I'll miss you, love.
``larcenciel
Music: none Mood: pleased
9:12 PM
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Like Everyone Was Having Fun
Went for a tj drama gathering yesterday which was awesome. Mostly seniors besides Ais, Amanda and I. Bummed around TCC at Raffles Place on beanbags and big cushions for about 3hours. After my horrifying ordeal with a latte at Gloria Jean's, I decided on the very conventional, very classic, (in other words) very boring Iced Coffee, where I could decide how much milk and sugar I wanted in my drink.
We were seriously noisy! And Louisa is great, she actually BOOKED a place for us! lol. Took a few picts here and there, retardedness personified, I would call it.
Today's a free day. I ought to continue my christmas card writing. I wanted to game last night and now but I cant because we're downloading the latest patch (or whatever they call it) Damn it I need gaming relief because I'M SAD.
``larcenciel
Music: Stupid Girls - Pink Mood: down
12:38 PM
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
I Just Want You to Know
Sometimes I wish that I can let Him in. He seems really good, really that wonderful, like He can actually save me. But when I think about.... I am once again reminded of the reason why I simply cannot believe. Besides, I've her. At the risk of sounding cheesy, She's all I need.
``larcenciel
Music: Extraordinary - unknown Mood: hungry
12:02 PM
Monday, December 11, 2006
Waking Up Is So Hard To Do
In the shower just now I suddenly felt nostalgic. Last year at this time I was gaming with a vengence. Seriously. The only thing I ever wanted to do was WoW like a freakish gamer with that 20-something from LA known as Chunx. I miss him. I really do. He's like the...uncle I never had. An odd comparison but that's cos he was always there to take care of a noobish me. Shaylle would never have gotten to 60 without him, that I can say for sure.
I still remember that I actually spent almost the whole of my birthday, Christmas and Valentines' Day gaming with him. Of course I cant forget all the help Bertram's giving me right now (he's like second Chunx haha) but oh, what I would give to see him online again!
``larcenciel
Music: Stronger Better Faster Stronger - Daft Punk Mood: nostalgic
3:07 AM
Sunday, December 10, 2006
I Had A Dream About You
Prom at Fullerton on 6th Dec! It was a nice experience I guess. Frankly, the food wasnt good. Neither was the service. But WOW, tjcians sure look GOOD. Everyone was so dolled up! (yeah and I wasnt...) I actually brought a camera, for once. Didnt take much picts but a decent number. Too lazy to upload all of them so here's some.
I'm in love with the Nokia advert song. It's cute =))
Don't stop come a little closer As we jam the rythm gets stronger There's nothing wrong with just a little little fun We were dancing all night long
``larcenciel
Music: Digital Love - Daft Punk Mood: happy
12:07 AM
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
Last Season
I got my prom stuff. They're super casual and non-black/gown-ish/formal, it may seem a little awkward but nevermind, I've never been quite normal anyway. I love the shoes. They're cute. Oh, and I'm wearing a hat. Haha. I'm a lazy ass who doesnt want to style my hair.
I spent $88 on everything in total. That's cheaper than the prom tickets, I should think.
Yesterday was so fun! wj accompanied me to the ZOO. I think we saw almost everything there, I dont even know how to begin describing it. We reached the zoo at about 1030am and left at around 3pm. My favourite animal has to be the small-clawed otter (or something like that) It is so incredibly cute, energetic, versatile and smelly. Haha. I know wj fell in love with the hippo as well as the giraffe keeper who is a GIRL, btw. She couldnt peel her eyes off the keeper, how terribly brazen.
And note to wj: rmbr that big "lake" surrounding the zoo? it IS a reservoir, Upper Seletar Reservoir. I told u that Singapore wont EVER miss out a chance to convert any water to drinkable water.
It's been pretty long since I last stayed at home and just slacked. Been going out everyday! And for today, I gotta go practise putting on my bloody contacts. I wish my eyes werent so sensitive =( I have newfound respect for people who can just pop these miraculous little lenses into their eyes without their eyes giving a fuck. Damn it.
``larcenciel
Music: Politically Incorrect - SR71 Mood: silly
11:27 AM
Friday, December 01, 2006
Tainted Feet
Mumble: Dont try to change me Pa. I cant.
-Happy Feet
If that doesnt break your heart I dont know what does. In Emperor Land penguins who cant sing and can dance are.....queer. I know I shouldnt be drawing such (to some) absurd parallels with an otherwise innocently PG cartoon but some things that stare at you right in the face simply cant be ignored. I found myself hating the other "normal" penguins. Mumble was different, in more ways than one. He was brave enough to dare to venture out to investigate the cause of the depleting fish. He was brave enough to challenge the foolish belief that there was a Higher Penguin out there bestowing the rest of the penguins their fish. Yeah, foolish belief indeed.
But perhaps, he was so incredibly brave because he felt like he had nothing to lose. Because of his difference, he was a misfit, a black sheep, the others hated him and took everything from him. He had nothing. Nothing at all because "society" had robbed him of a chance of living.
You know what? That's happening right now, right here. So dont scoff at Happy Feet please. Scoff at yourself.