Yesterday, I watched a series of "It Gets Better" viral videos, recorded by famous people and normal folk, by people from both camps, by politicians and singers and actors; but the message was clear-- Don't give up. Don't give in to those bullies. Keep strong and believe in yourself, whoever and whatever you might be and identify with, because it will only get better from here, and you need to be alive to realize and see it.
This comes in wake of the shocking tragedies of four teenage suicides, each bullied and pushed to choose death because they were or perceived to be gay. And these are just four cases, highlighted because of their stark similarities and frequency. There were hundreds of such deaths before, some even murdered for being different. But there continues to be thousands and more out there who are still struggling with their sexuality and coming to terms with their differences, battling with bullying and the discrimination and scorn from society. Most will climb out of it, battered and torn, but still fighting. Others will bow, ripped and broken and destroyed.
But from today on it will get better. It will get better because society attitudes will become better, your family and friends will understand you better and will be more forgiving and accepting. Love will prevail, hatred will lose. Bullies will always be around; just as how pests will always exist. But given the right conditions and keeping, pests will stay away, forced to hide under little dark crevices of the wooden garden shed, out of sight and away from everyone. So don't ever give up.... Don't ever break and give in to that revolver, don't give in to the rope, don't give in to free fall from a bridge. Because then you won't be able to live the blessed life of love you so rightfully deserved and will get.... If only you were around, if only you have found them earlier. If only society had stopped itself sooner...
The only comforting thing about tragedies is that they mark the start of change for something better, something that will prevent another such tragedy from happening.
These are times I feel like even in this fucked up world packed with lots of fucked up people, there are precious groups of gems that will keep fighting for the vulnerable and marginalized, and fighting for a better tomorrow; even if it was only a little bit better, it would be worth everything.
``larcenciel
Music: Pursuit of Happiness - Kid Cudi Mood: Hopeful
12:25 AM
Sunday, October 17, 2010
The Sky Might Be Falling Down, But That Means We're Closer To Heaven
Returning from Gl@m N@ti0n KL, I'm a weird bundle of emotions now. I'm happy, blissful and fulfilled from the brilliant and incredibly sexy performance His Majesty gave, but at the same time, indignant, confused and disappointed at the way he was forced to comply and modify his art for some bigoted idiots and their so-called ideals. According to them, society will be morally corrupted after watching Gl@m N@ti0n since Ad@m's "morally unfit", and crime and violence will escalate, accelerating moral decay and destruction to mankind... And all because a talented singing powerhouse, donning some glitter, eyeliner and pretty clothes, gives a staged same-sex smooch. Nevermind that it's his vocals and charisma that draw people to his performances, surely, his bedmate preferences will be the ONLY thing that people think of when they watch his show. And it is catastrophic because every guy that sees Ad@m will most certainly become gay and every woman that sees him will, umm, become lesbian.
That's rubbish of course... Unless we're acknowledging that the majority of people are born gay, and so everyone has a suppressed homosexual side, just waiting and longing to explode out of the plastic straight shell. But that would mean being gay is actually the norm, so why hate it so much if being gay is actually more natural than being hetero?
These bigots are so contradictory. Give their own kind (aka straight people... wait, some of them aren't even straight) some credit okay? They're not gonna jump up same-sex pants when the opportunity arises. These are preferences that cannot be changed so simply. If you like the opposite sex, then you like that. If you don't, then you don't. It's not something that some glitter and a $100 concert ticket can change.
On a slightly separate but similar note, September was the month four kids, struggling with their sexuality and to fit in, were pushed to the edge. William Lucas, 15. Tyler Clementi, 18. Asher Brown, 13. Seth Walsh, 13. Two hung themselves, one shot and another jumped. They were hectored, bullied and mocked by classmates. It was torturous facing their friends and family, knowing how detested and damned they were; yet they were helpless and lost, wrecked and broken by society.
The only rise in violence and crime I see are committed by those who are intolerant and discriminating - often from these so-called morally upright groups.
So before PAS decides to prevent the supposed moral decay that Ad@m will cause, why not try stopping the moral decay YOUR type of people have already make happen. It's impossible, of course, seeing how such "values" are so deeply entrenched. Then perhaps it is time to either kill yourselves, PAS, since you construct such horrific and cruel images of humanity that surely death will conform to your ideals best, or be a little less extremist and more compassionate - something society needs more of than the hate you propagate so proudly everyday.
To William, Tyler, Asher & Seth, unfortunately people cannot accept your magnificence and beauty yet. Forgive them, they are quite stupid. But I know that in your own heavens, you can finally be who you are and love who you want to love; free of everything tainted and spoilt - unlike in this mad, rotten world.
``larcenciel
Music: Down (cover) - Sam Tsui & Kurt Mood: Heartbroken
2:17 PM
Thursday, October 07, 2010
Like The Only Black Against White
I'm just so, so sick of the straight world. For a moment I can still pretend it's okay... But too much of it grosses me out and I really, honestly and truly from the bottom of my ass (which, btw, is much bigger than my heart) don't like the thought and sight of a male and female together. If they're both beautiful it's okay, but normal distribution dictates that there will be a large number of non-gorgeous straight couples around and that's just so weird and unnatural to me!
But everyday I still have to put up with seeing them, interacting with them, feeling happy for them and tolerating them. Dear God... I'm totally born in a wrong time, wrong dimension, wrong world and wrong place in social norms.
Need my lesbian fix badly... Girlfriend would be perfect but for now, thelword will suffice just barely.
T_T sigh...
``larcenciel
Music: Dynamite (cover) - Alex Goot Mood: Irritated
10:34 PM
Saturday, October 02, 2010
Can You Handle What He's About To Do?
For our entertainment... Loving the fanservice!
All hail Adommy fever!!! But not forgetting his thing with cutesy fellow AI boy, Kris Allen. Aww, the days of Kradam...
Adommy's much sexier but Kradam's sweet. Either way, Adam's a total top; a classic seme with a taste for pretty, blonde ukes shorter than him.
``larcenciel
Music: For Your Entertainment - Adam Lambert Mood: Fangirly