I Don't Think You Trust In My Self-Righteous Suicide Eric fired through the roof of his mouth, causing "evacuation of the brain." He collapsed against the books, and his torso slumped to the side. He ended that way, with his arms curled forward, as if hugging an invisible pillow. Eric and Dylan blew out their medullas, the brain centre that controls involuntary functions. Their hearts stopped almost instantly.
"NO, NO NO God Fucking damit NO! I will sooner die than betray my own thoughts. but before I leave this worthless place, I will kill whoever I deem unfit."
-Columbine by Dave Cullen
``larcenciel
Music: Chop Suey - System of A Down Mood: Thrilled
11:55 PM
Saturday, September 12, 2009
God I Want to Torch and Level Everything
"We start killing then and there. I aint going out without a fight."
Eric repeated that last line almost verbatim in an English essay. The assignment was to react to a quote from literature, and Eric had chosen this line from Euripides' tragedy Medea: "no, like some yellow-eyed beast that has killed its hunters let me lie down on the hounds' bodies and the broken spears." Medea was declaring that she would die fighting, Eric wrote. They would never take her without a struggle. He repeated that sentiment seven times in a page and a quarter. He described Medea as brave and courageous, tough and strong and hard as stone. It is one of the most impassioned public essays Eric left behind.
Eric dreamed big, but settled for reality. Humans meant nothing; Eric was superior and determined to prove it. Watching us suffer would be enjoyable. Every week he devised colorful new scenarios: crashing planes into buildings, igniting blocks of skyscrapers, ejecting people into outer space. But the objective never wavered: kill as many as possible, as dramatically as imaginable.
In a perfect world, Eric would extinguish the species. Eric was a practical kid, though. The planet was beyond him; even a block of Denver high-rises was out of reach. But he could pull off a high school.
-Columbine by Dave Cullen
I finally got my hands on Columbine. It's the best book I have ever read. I love everything in the book, especially about Eric. Eric, he was amazing.
``larcenciel
Music: 8 become 1 - Norwegian Recycling Mood: Sorrowful