Today, I woke up at the usual time, took the usual amount of time to wash up and get ready for school, and reached school at the usual time. Following that, I attended lessons as usual, half-listened and paid selective attention to certain tutorials and lectures as usual, and criticised the current Econs lecturer (as usual).
The not so usual things include skipping Maths tutorial because I didnt have the mood and the hectic Mardi Gras rehearsal that took up alot of my energy and (maybe) sanity. But I dont mind it much, so Amanda dear, dont feel guilty. As president, I shouldnt be so ignorant of what goes on in MG anyway =) so it's all cool.
Let me continue my narration of my (normal) day today. I reached home at 7pm, still kinda stressed, logged onto TJ forums and got pissed by some Moderator's insensitive and scathing remark about me not using proper English. For cryin' out loud, no one uses proper Eng in forums!! that mod should stop being sucha wet blanket and haughty pig. i will only accept comments by the administrator, because I respect his ways of handling the forums on the whole. that Mod should kiss my athh.
And this is the end of my very normal post. Now proceeding to complete some unfinished homework.
``larcenciel
Music: Innocent - Our Lady Peace Mood: slightly impatient
9:33 PM
Monday, March 27, 2006
Hello, How Are You?
sometimes just dropping a hi to old frens wldnt hurt right? u never know what a simple, hi how do u do? might do for someone. but we're all too wrapped up in our own little lives to bother sending tt msg or giving tt phone call.
anyway, im so down now cos i seriously wasted my whole weekend away (not by gaming (surprise, surprise!) but by watching VCDs and going online =( it's now 12:11am. and im pissed at myself cos i didnt complete my tuition hw and ive tuition tmr, and that there's swimming tmr (so troublesome!!)
that's all. Sheesh, talk abt pointless entries.
i shall go drown my sorrowful self in more Will and Grace. it's so funny.
``larcenciel
Music: World of Warcraft Legends Mood: miserable
12:06 AM
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
When You're Screeching Like That
Today was a good day, just a few tutorials, some breaks in between and best of all, early dismissal. so i was on my way home in not-bad kinda spirits when some gang of mutts had to dampen it. they were singing, excuse me, screeching and 'rapping' at the top of their lungs right at the back of the bus. occassionally they included some songs in their Mother Tongue and i was all but
they were not only disruptive, they were inconsiderate and posed as a hazard. Good grief, there was no way anyone tt witnessed tt din could come out un-trumatised. i regret that i am(note e present tense) so cowardly. all i did was turn briefly in their direction and made exaggerated actions when i took my nano out and plugged in. what i really wanted to do was walk up to them and hurl the most degrading insults ever and give them all a cold, hard stare. but Allahs! cowardice plagues me =(
ok, enough ranting. it isnt too healthy anyway. im gonna watch Monster now =) it's really the best anime ard. Best, here, meaning in terms of plot, character builds and the complex theme of it. my latest anime squeeze is Johan Liebert (German, so J is pronounced as Y), villian of Monster. His character was constructed with e vision of Hitler in mind btw. Infact, this is an anime showing us the power of good charisma, propaganda, even.
Johan is so cute, effiminate style, i like. Yum =D
Lastly, i'd like to add, Hello Sa Wa Di Karp-ers! Stop torching anything that's Singaporean! Just cos ur parliament darling sold Shincorp doesnt give u the right to bash us. Keep us out of ur political mess, please.
``larcenciel
Music: Deep Inside of You - Third Eye Blind Mood: agitated
2:54 PM
Sunday, March 19, 2006
Destiny: Reloaded
(Note: I spent 30min typing and re-typing this post, but i was still unsatisfied with e outcome, hence this post will be short and sweet, direct and simple)
This morning I watched 3 episodes of Gundam Seed Destiny (obviously i picked the 3 that had lots of Athrun pwning Shinn) and i just have to re-state that my undying devotion towards Athrun-sama is, well, undying =)) he's sucha cutie.
absolutely love the angsty part of him =D
ugh. sch reopens tmr. actually i realised that im not that upset abt it... i only detest waking up before 7am and the crappy tests.
``larcenciel
Music: I For You - Lunasea Mood: slightly fangirly
12:30 PM
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Bubbling Cauldron of Fug
Bubble, Fuggle, Boil and Fug the World. Ingredients and such:
1. waiting for slow, stupid 14 for 25 minutes for the 100th time 2. noisy, smelly, sticky, fat pri sch kids that clog up 7-eleven 3. kiasu, inconsiderate commuters that rush into MRTs without giving a fuck abt ppl exiting 4. the pricks from GKW (God Knows Where) that crowded SMU's 4pm Business Managment talk 5. examinations. period. 6. AMEN!!! 7. sluts, in general 8. TJC's security guards cos theyre just redundant crap 9. the fact that i cant dedicate all my time to WoW 10. loving someone and not being able to tell him/her that
and even after all that, i know that ultimately, I am the reason why i am feeling so bitter, resentful and upset.
``larcenciel
Music: Ming Ming Hen Ai Ni - Fish Leong Mood: frustrated
8:09 PM
Friday, March 10, 2006
It's All About the Metal
My declaration hurts, just wanna stab it right now Congratulations, you've found yourself Been preaching too many times to a hysterical mind So won't you fucking behave yourself.
I'm waiting for something to show, I might as well. Just drag me down so low. I'm waiting for something to show, My punishment, For being down so low.
I cant believe I never listened to metal until recently. of course, i dont mean the LOUD, SCREAM TILL UR VOICE CRACKS metal but Spineshank, Soilwork kinda metal. it's pretty liberating... in a disturbing yet comfortable kinda way. The burden of a secret, especially if it's my own, is so heavy. Sometimes, I feel like freeing myself of this and facing my feelings truthfully without shame, guilt and hesitation, but I just cant. coward.
``larcenciel
Music: Stabbing the Drama - Soilwork Mood: a tad depressed
8:19 PM
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
The Human Heart
A few days ago, some troubled kid from the East jumped to his death. He was, coincidentally, a pal of my classmate. These people have never been on my agenda, in fact, I've never really felt sad for them, because it's their choice anyway. So imagine my indifference when I heard abt this, smthg I now admit to be ashamed of.
The value of life is measured by what it has been used for. From what I heard, the victim here was ur typical straight A student-leader with an abundance of friends and a pretty well-off family. Was his death a waste? To end it so abruptly and cruelly and to rob himself of a chance to live on, was it fair?
I never cared abt such things, but a good friend of mine managed to weave those disturbing questions strongly in my head. She could see what my blinded self couldnt see, she could feel what my stoned heart couldnt feel, and most importantly, she was honest in every way and grieved for the loss of a precious life. She cried together with my classmate and dared to bare her truthful thoughts.
As I watched her, I saw her unveil the true human heart; like a child's, all innocence and purity, untainted and genuine, kind and caring. The human heart was never meant to be hard, like mine, but embracing, like hers.
My condolences to the kid's family and friends. Nothing must be worse than losing someone so dear to suicide, because it raises the hurting question of "Why didnt i realise he was troubled?" But take pride in his history, his life, even though it only lasted for a while.
``larcenciel
Music: Song 6 - David Powter Mood: solemn
5:58 PM
Saturday, March 04, 2006
Oh Tammy, Tammy
It seems like everyone has been making such a big hoo-ha over the NYP sex video tt i decided to check it out for myself. and i thought that it was,
ok, so there was quite a lot of action, but really senseless, sensual-less, emotionless action, so much so that it became increasingly boring and painful for me to watch. There was no passion. At the end of it, I actually asked aloud, that's it? and wait, did they actually come?
Henceforth, I do not see why we had to blow up this whole issue. It isnt worthy of any attention, and should have just been brushed aside as 'lame teenage porn'. My pittance to Tammy, the humiliation was really for nothing. btw, what did they do to the person who circulated the video ard?
they shldnt title the video as 'NYP sex vid' but 'The Teenage Process of Corpulation'
and an afterthought, the human body is really, such an ugly sight after all.
``larcenciel
Music: Never Felt Like This Before - Shaznay Lewis Mood: disgusted