....to no one in particular. Went back to TK today! BIG SMILES! the usual ex-4e2 people were there... not many, but better than none. So TK has changed quite abit, but that's expected... and this is going to sound really cliche (note to sY: cliche is used for this)
As i walk along the corridors, I see the past re-playing right infront of me. I walk past the Drama noticeboard and I remember the times I dutifully checked the board for any updates. I touch the pillars at the top of the stairs leading up to the 4th storey and I recall myself trudging this way every morning to class. Has it really been that long?
The whiteboard, where I always had to update attendance daily. The class cupboard, remember my attempt at chiding the class? The boards, evidence of our creativity and effort. The floor, our cleanliness? oh dont even think about it. The windows, the corridors.
They're still somewhere in my memory.
The friendships; bonds forged, experiences and so much more. They will always be a part of me.
It's only been 2 years. yet it feels so far away.
``larcenciel
Music: Never Gonna Leave Your Side - Daniel Beddingfield Mood: nostalgic
8:30 PM
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Lengua de Cuerpo
This song is so smooth you can feel your clothes falling off. and I could do a lap dance for you.
Man, it's a hot one Like seven inches from the midday sun Well, I hear you whisper And the words melt everyone But you stay so cool My Munequita My spanish harlem Mona Lisa You're my reason for reason The step in my groove And if you said
This life ain't good enough I would give my world to lift you up I could change my life to better suit your mood Cause you're so smooth
And it's just like the ocean Under the moon Well, that's the same the emotion That I get from you You got the kind of loving That could be so smooth Give me your heart Make it real Or else forget about it
Smooth - Santana feat Rob Thomas
Note to hM: Listen to this gem, at 1:44 there's a really, really SEXYY sax drawl ;)
``larcenciel
Music: Smooth - Santana feat Rob Thomas Mood: kittish
5:55 PM
Friday, August 25, 2006
Sinking with Crop Circles
My last week of Singapore, uniform-ed school at a glance: Sick, sick and SICK. Ok, really wasnt how I planned it =X so now im left with 2 weeks of study leave before I go back for the exams. Life is so wonderful.
Im too damned worried for the As, seriously. Will I ever be able to get through this in 1 piece? I feel like I still dont understand quite a lot of my work, yet I'm too lazy to find out. Why cant I understand, really? And Im always feeling so lethargic in what I do, I try to motivate myself, but sometimes I just cant. How am I going to last? Everyone else seems to be doing fine, sure they complain, but they still can get their work done and done well too. which is what I fail to do... *misery*
See one thing I like about getting sick is that I can sleep for as long as I wanna without feeling guilty =) ok, back to resting. I need to recover fully by next week so that I can start my STUDY MARATHON up to exams.
Hide and seek. Trains and sewing machines. Blood and tears. All those years, they were here first.
Oily marks appear on walls Where pleasure moments hung before. The takeover, the sweeping insensitivity of this still life.
Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth. Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs. Speak no feeling, no I dont believe you. You don't care a bit. You don't care a bit.
Hide and Seek - Imogen Heap
``larcenciel
Music: Goodnight and Go - Imogen Heap Mood: small
2:37 PM
Friday, August 18, 2006
Of All Quotes
Yesterday I found another gem in the library. It's titled, The Best Liberal Quotes Ever. sub-titled, Why the Left is Right ;) sounds quirky doesnt it? Well, basically it's a collection of awesome quotations by, you guessed it, liberals. They're classified under issues such as Racism, Materialism, Feminism etc. Credit to William Martin for compiling such interesting and often astoundingly profound words. Like one reviewer said of this book, it's fun and inspiring, a must-have for anyone who loves liberty and leans to the left.
Ok ok... I'll stop bragging about the book and just get down to giving y'all my favourites. You wont regret reading this, i promise.
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On Animal Rights The question is not, "Can they reason?" nor "Can they talk?" But rather, "Can they suffer?" -Jeremy Bentham
On God and Atheism My atheism is true piety towards the universe and denies only Gods fashioned by men in their own image to be servants of their human interests. -George Santayana
I have too much respect for God to make it responsible for such an absurd world. -Georges Duhamel
Is Man one of God's blunders or is God one of Man's blunders? -Friedrich Nietzsche
On Feminism and Marriage Feminism is the radical notion that women are people too. -Cheris Kramarae
If I have to, I can do anything. I am strong, I am invincible, I am woman. -Helen Reddy
I married beneath me. Infact, all hetereosexual women do. -Nancy Astor
On Sex and Sexism God gave us a penis and a brain, but only enough blood to run one at a time. -Robin Williams
When authorities warn you of the sinfulness of sex, there is an important lesson to be learnt. Do not have sex with the authorities. -Matt Groening
When a man gives his opinion, he is a man. When a woman gives her opinion, she is a bitch. -Bette Davis
And of course, I save the best for last.
On Gay and Lesbian It's funny how hetereosexuals have lives and the rest of us have "lifestyles." -Sonia Johnson
Keep the government out of my bedroom. -unknown
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And these are just a few. I am beginning to love the school library more and more. I'm glad I went to look for econs reference books. The "Political Science and Philosophy" shelves were nearby.
Well, next week is, officially, the last 5days of school for us. Gosh, time really flies. Soon Prelims will be over and the As will be here. Then it will be over and we'll be shipped off to different universities. Just like that. Move on. Dont stop. Just keep going forward. Dont slow down. Because if you do, you'll be all alone. And no one will wait.
Rubbish. I've the most amazing mates anyone could ask for. And they know who they are *happiness* I am lucky. I wont be alone.
Haha surprised that I didnt end with a "the world will end and it's all cos of HUMANS" note?? ;)
``larcenciel
Music: Alisha Rules the World - Alisha's Attic Mood: chirpy and optimistic
4:40 PM
Saturday, August 12, 2006
Prescription: Explicit
Good evening, class. I would like to invite you to ***** 101, listen closely now.
There's rules and regulations to pleasing a girl. Going down town could really rock her world but u gotta make sure tt u noe what ure doing. There's a map down there that u gotta start learning
First u gotta make sure u rehearse. Move around ur tongue like ure trying to curse cos there's nothing worse than a tongue that doesnt work, then u'll really be mad n u feel like a jerk.
Spread out her lips before u kiss, u wanna make sure tt u find the click. Lick a lil' bit then move it all around, lick it all over till u hear her make a sound.
Then u noe that u find a good spot. Tease it, and touch it but not alot. Put ur mouth on top, ure in control, u can make it happen fast or slow.
Lick it, better lick it right Touch it, better touch it right Kiss it, better kiss it right Do that chingy righttt...
Let ur mouth do the talking and ur tongue do the walking, work on ur cardio, there is no stopping. U'll get through the pain if u jaw alot u gotta be a soldier man, dont u stop.
I did change a few parts to make it less suggestive. but the song's groooovyy. I heard this somewhere: If this song were a person, I would make love to it right now.
Apt ;)
``larcenciel
Music: ***** 101 - Goddess She Mood: hott
8:05 PM
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
A Song of Home
As usual, I'm full of optimistism, pride and joy at this time of the year, all thanks to the National Day Parade. It's fantastic propaganda, and I'm a sucker for it. Nothing beats watching so many people, in the national colours of red and white, all gathered together in the National Stadium singing the national anthem, reciting the pledge, cheering and clapping for our founding fathers, our President, our fellow countrymen who worked so hard to put up dazzling performances and of course, our beautiful flag and the spectacular fireworks.
I know this is very old-school, but I just love the whole National Day spirit and bonding thing we've got going on. We may be rivals or strangers on every other day but on 9th August, there is only love, hope and pride. I am always moved to tears everytime I watch the march pass, watch the President making his rounds, waving benevolently to the people and the people responding so enthusiastically back. This must be what Singapore truly is. Despite my constant cynism about Singapore, I realise I can never, ever be detached to this beautiful, unique and wonderous place I proudly call home. How cliche, but remember that at the bottom of every cliche is always something more complex and meaningful. I am truly proud to be a Singaporean.
Notice how many times the words "proud" and "pride" appear in this post. Maybe it's due to my narrow vocab, maybe it's simply because I am this proud of sunny, sunny Singapore =)
This is my home, she's everything to me Grace and beauty, in all that u see.
and I LOVE DURIANS AND JONATHAN LEONG XD
``larcenciel
Music: My Island Home - NDP06 theme song Mood: patriotic
10:46 PM
Saturday, August 05, 2006
Of "ScreamZ" and "FaintZ"
That's right all you secret fangirls, this is why we exist.
I watched the re-run of Idol just now cos I missed it previously. Damn, Jonathan Leong is HOT. It's not just his amazing vocals that make me shiver with delight. It's his souful eyes, his pretty lips, his everything that's so attractive. I cant believe he's actually a Singaporean! He seems too talented and beautiful to be local. Ok, not exactly the kind of notion I should have with National Day peeking around the corner and all. No, I mean, I love Singapore. She's my home, my country and all the patriotic things but Ive always been pretty pessimistic about the people in our media industry, the way media is laid out here, the way we represent ourselves on TV, magazines, newspapers etc.
I digress. The point is that Jonathan Leong is the Singapore Idol (i know ive said this a dozen times and im not gonna stop) Even if he, God forbid, gets booted out, he'll always be the Singapore Idol 2 to me =) Oh, I cant wait till the Finals, when I can grin and say, in my haughtiest tone, I told you so.
Ok, I gotta go study now *groans*
``larcenciel
Music: What's the Deal - 28 Days Mood: happy
8:41 PM
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Food for Thought
I picked up a book on anorexia just yesterday, Life-Size by Jenefer Shute. It's fictional and a romp of a read. It's intense, horrifying, depressing and utterly grotesque. Yet it's beautiful, abstract and incredibly poignant. Josie, a 25 year old who's dream is to be thin enough, to rid her body of disfiguring flesh and to have just the pure, clear shape of herself. Bones. She is a walking skeleton, but she still has this warped idea that she's defiled and dirty because of whatever flesh still remaining on her.
The author's writing absolutely blows my mind. I am torn between sympathy, hate, support and disgust. Food, to me, can never be something dirty, but something special, seductive and ultimately satisfying. This book gives me an extremely haunting slice of half-life that is the anorexic experience. It shows how anorexia is from the inside, and it's so very sad, so very pitiful that some people have to go through it.
As always, everything is about perspectives. Different eyes see different things. Different windows bare different souls. This book tells it all, in (or out of) the flesh.
Reading this is like lesbian sex. It sucks you right in from the start, takes you high high high and just as quickly, withdraws from your longing grip just before the climax, taking you down down down and making you beg for more, for just that little bit before the big end but you never get it, and all you've left is the bittersweet aftertaste of detachment and loss, of which is fuelled by a variety of other pressures.
If the analogy sounds wrong, blame it on the after-effect of watching 2 episodes of Lword.
``larcenciel
Music: I want to spend my lifetime loving u - Mask of Zorro OST Mood: delirious